1. Today was Constitution day & my kids were the best at singing Star Spangled Banner! They were super cute :) 2. My teacher wrote very nice comments on my progress sheet & told me that I look like a teacher because I have confidence when standing in front of the classroom & because you could see my care for the children! :) 3. I got to see da boyfran today and study a little bit with him and we were both just studying on his couch and he looks at me and just starts laughing and goes, “erm, you have hot cheetos all over your shirt.” & I go, "well, this is the real me! hahaha" & he tells me, "I love you exactly the way you are." & then he farts & I tell him, "I love you exactly the way you are" :)
"Knowing who you are in Christ gives you the ability to rest. When you don’t know who you are, you strive. So rest child, you are loved and accepted by God. You are seen as holy and blameless in His sight. You are His beloved, his friend, his son or daughter, you are His cherished, chosen one. You are His, come and rest."
My grad class makes me feel like I don’t understand English.
Why do we have to use words like hegemonic or regnant? One thing that irks me is when a book uses a fancy shmancy word when it’s not necessary. I don’t want to read a thesaurus just to understand a paragraph. Let’s get simple & to the point, peopleeeeez!
Anyways, some thoughts from today’s class:
-What is it mean to fail in school vs what it is to fail in life?
-We focus so much on what should be taught that we don’t focus on what isn’t being taught & why? When we see the structure of schools & classrooms not changing much from long ago- maybe it’s time for some restructuring?
-Over the years, the American Dream has changed. Before it was the message of: If you work hard, you’ll go far in life & succeed. Now, there’s a bigger emphasis on education. The message today is, if you don’t go to college, you won’t get a job and you won’t succeed. Ironically, we prioritize going to college yet we are slow in actually doing something about our education system. & we push our kids to be what we think if important. Maybe we need to hear that not every kid should go to college. Maybe college is not for everyone. The purpose of education means something different for every kid and family. What is it that you value?
Today has been one of the roughest days of student teaching.
These kids drain me out, man. Today, I felt so frustrated & doubted my ability to be a good teacher. I felt like my patience was being tested & it’s so discouraging to see the bad days outweigh the good with this class!!
It’s one thing for a student who is really struggling & wants to learn but just simply cannot understand the material no matter how hard he tries For these students, I can and will repeat as many times as I need to for them to get it. HOWEVER, it’s another thing for a student to walk into my classroom & put his feet on the table & make me repeat things over & over again, just to talk and not listen the minute I turn my back to the whiteboard & also lie to me saying he needs to go to the bathroom really bad and comes back only to have another teacher tell me that she found him throwing spit balls on the bathroom walls.
More than AT the students, I’m frustrated FOR those students who actually walk through that door wanting to learn but has to sit there and waste 15 min (every min throughout the day adds up) of precious content time for me to go over rules & stop bad behavior.
I’m frustrated because these students are actually smart and is capable of doing the work but is lazy and decides to play around & be the class clown instead.
I’m frustrated because they make me feel really ugly inside when I have to scold them and actually follow through with the consequences for not following rules.
I’m frustrated because I ask myself every morning what can I do to be a better teacher & prepare & believe in them & tell them motivational things like "Today is a new day to make smart choices & be better. I want you guys to leave today feeling good about yourself & stay on green, I believe you guys can do it!" but instead, they choose to take advantage of my nice-ness.
It’s tough. & on top of that, I was late to my grad class because it took me 20 min to find parking & I got to class just to find out that the 70 pages of reading that you had?- the professor wanted you to type up reflection questions and emailed the class THE MORNING OF saying that he wanted these… -_- Well, I was in school teaching all day so I didn’t get this email… sigh, not the best day.
But you know what? I have to tell myself these motivational things too. Today was not such a great day. BUT tomorrow is a new day. & everything is going to be alright. Breathe. Smile. It will be okay.
"'The joy of the Lord is our strength.' But it is not our joy in the Lord that gives us strength. The Lord’s joy is our strength. My strength comes not from how much joy I can manage to muster. Otherwise, I am the source of my strength and not God. My strength comes from the fact that our God rejoices in me. His joy in me makes me strong."
I made an old lady blush today at work because she ordered two senior coffees and I said “SENIOR ? I’m sorry miss, i’m going to have to ask to see some ID.” and she covered her mouth and went “Oh dear me” and couldn’t stop smiling
hahahaha well, that’s new. I woke up like 4 times today while sleeping because my body was automatically waking up at 6am thinking it’s school time but i forced myself to sleep in a little :) & Praaaaaise my canker sores are goneeeeeee. I’ve been falling asleep doing work- I think it was God’s way of just being like, REST, CHILD, REST. hahahah but the great thing is that I still completed my work on time :) YAY!